Pay the Writer

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I’ve really been enjoying this thread by Heidi Moore over on Twitter about writers getting exploited through low rates…

This morning it got me thinking about the days long ago when I ran Just Laugh because some smaller publications are starting to give her pushback for being called out because “they don’t have the budget to afford to pay writers any more.”

And I sort of get that to a point, however that point lies in a time almost 20 years ago when the publishing landscape was much different … and it’s for this same reason why when I tried to relaunch the site a few years ago, I just didn’t have the guts to ask people to write for free anymore…

When I first created Just Laugh back in 1999, I had just graduated from high school and was still living in my Mom’s basement. I worked the same job I had in school that paid me about $9/hour, and I built Just Laugh in my spare time to help distract myself from not having gone off to college right away like the rest of my friends had.

The Internet was still pretty new then, so Adsense and Amazon affiliates and all of these revenue options for small publishers just didn’t exist yet. I don’t know if we all just happened to be in the right mindset at the right time, but when I emailed writers asking to syndicate their work or publish something new for them, it worked for everyone at the time.

In fact, the site always had a slot for a 468×60 banner ad in the header, but it was perpetually filled by either house ads for our various projects or ads for random sites that I liked.

I never made a dime from it, and by the time advertising had become a thing, the site was basically defunct and the only place I ran anything was in our Joke Database which still never made enough to cover the $14.95 a month I spent on hosting.

I actually remember being surprised when I looked at the account years later and found that it had accumulated a couple hundred bucks in it, quite literally by making $1-2 a month for years and years on end! 😯

Anyways, I wanted to share this because I feel like today online publishing is very different.

Today it’s so much easier to build a website, and a following of your own through social media, and even earn financial support whether it’s through ads or merch or directly from fans via sites like Patreon.

Most creators don’t need a publisher anymore, and I can’t tell you the number of times during that attempted relaunch when I would come across writers and artists who I would’ve loved to work with, only to think two things…

  1. But I can’t afford to pay them.
  2. And their following is bigger than mine to the point that they don’t need me anyways!

It’s been a really sore spot as I’ve learned more about publishing in general over these years how lopsided the equation actually is for most creators, and how messed up it is for someone to take the lion’s share of your revenue and also not do as much for your own work as you could just do yourself.

You hear about it all of the time from people on the NYT bestsellers list, and yet people still scramble to make it there despite knowing that getting actual support from a big publisher like JK Rowling or John Green might is the equivalent of winning the lottery.

So it was interesting to read about several smaller publications fighting in support of their lower wages because they were doing the best that they could, and writers were grateful for their voice. 

One actually noted in its “expense report” that their expenses had gone up “because they had to pay for health insurance for their staff” … which is kind of the point that the whole thread is trying to make because a writer shouldn’t have to work for pennies so that their editor can have health insurance!!!

The thing is, I get passion projects. I really do.

Just Laugh was always very much a passion project for me, and I sincerely hope that the other people who helped contribute to what we did looked at it in the same way.

In hindsight, I actually had one squabble with a writer who thought that I was just using his work to sell merch, and despite having only sold I think one single mousepad the entire time, now as an almost-40 writer I can see a little better where he was coming from, and I would’ve been pissed thinking some cocky, 20-something was profiting off of my work and not paying me for it, too!

It’s for that reason why I think that it would be really hard to run a publication like that today because just like any other field, if you can’t afford to pay your writers a decent wage, you don’t deserve to take one yourself, either. Maybe if everyone is onboard with your mission, or it’s a close-knit group chasing a dream, but if you’ve got a budget of any sorts, there’s really no excuse to not be fairly compensating the folks who are literally putting the words on the page for your cause.

To put it another way…

Rediscovering Music, Digitally

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Recently I decided to revisit the seemingly gargantuan task of reorganizing my digital music collection.

It’s something that I’ve been putting off even longer than updating my backup plan because I honestly don’t listen to music much except for maybe when I’m in the car, even though it seems silly to only have access to about 20 albums on my phone when I’ve got upwards of 100 GB of music sitting on the server at home.

But really, therein lies the problem – I’ve found that while Plex has been my loving savior for roughly 99.5% of my digital media woes, the one area where it seems to fall short is in organizing my music because of how it identifies songs … or at least tries to, anyways.

It turns out that despite going through the steps many, many moons ago to convert all of my mountains of CDs that I acquired through the likes of BMG and Columbia House to MP3s, apparently the tags that got embedded in the files are inconsistent as all crap. It never really bothered me because I had the files themselves organized by genre, artist, and album, and I’d play everything with Windows Media Player (or WinAmp if we really want to whip the llama’s ass…).

#geeknostalgia

Anyways, it turns out that when you tell Plex to use a file’s tags, it takes that directive very seriously, even when to my regular, human eyes some of them are absolute garbage! Completely ignoring directory structure, it would mix tracks among different albums and sometimes even classify music under several different artists if their names were spelled incorrectly across the various tracks!

It sucks, which is why I’ve put the project off for so long, however lately I’ve been thinking a lot about the data I hoard and how it makes all of the sense in the world to store it in a format that’s actually useful for its consumption, so it was time to finally start addressing the problem…

…which in my case means importing one or two artists at a time and refreshing my Plex library, then reviewing the results and making any manual changes to group songs together correctly, list multi-disk sets correctly, and so forth.

After several hours of work, Plex tells me that so far I’ve added a whopping 19 artists to my library, so I’ve clearly got a long ways to go, but the plus side of all of this is that I’ve been stumbling back across all of these great songs that I used to love at various times over the years.

So I thought it might be fun to share a few here – most are from my college days, though Led Zeppelin I listened to pretty much religiously back in high school! It’s amazing how beautiful some of those guitar tracks are that I’ve completely forgotten about…

Maybe as I come across others, I’ll write a little something about select favorites and what they mean to me … seeing as that was actually the original intention of this blog post when I first started writing. 😉

A Change of Backup…

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This past weekend I finally made the decision to switch backup providers from CrashPlan to Backblaze.

I think.

It seems like I’ve been using CrashPlan forever at this point – at least 5 years now – and it’s honestly something that I just setup a long time ago and left alone … like you’re supposed to with any good backup! 😉

The problem is, and it’s one that I’ve admittedly been ignoring for a while now, is that over the last couple of years CrashPlan’s price has crept up while at the same time its feature set crept down, so I honestly haven’t been getting the value out of it that I once was oh so long ago…

I believe the cost was $5/month/computer when I first started using CrashPlan, and I used it for both my laptop as well as critical files on my home server (which was cool because they had a Linux client that was really easy to use!). Then a few years later, they unexpectedly dropped home support, which was going to double the price in the long term … though in their defense, they offered a 50% discount off home pricing for one year to ease in the transition.

So basically my pricing went from $10 -> $5 -> $20 per month over a few years time!

The bigger hit was that this summer they added a special exclusion for Plex files, which was a big part of what I backed up off my server. I didn’t try to send them my entire library of dozens of TB, mind you, but it seemed reasonable to send them 20 GB of config and metadata so that I could restore Plex easily if the server bit the big one.

In total, I had something like 400 GB backed up with CrashPlan – roughly 200 GB of personal photos and writing and everything else from my laptop, and another 200 GB of Plex config data and some music and other hard to replace archived stuff from my server.

So anyways…

It’s been eating at me for a while that I needed to make a change.

I’ve actually followed Backblaze for a long time because I love how open they are with how they store massive amounts of data. I guess I always just thought that their usage-based plan was too expensive for my needs because I didn’t want to go with another $5/month plan and their unlimited plan doesn’t support Linux anyways.

The funny thing is, apparently when you’re already spending $20/month on backups, that’s enough to store about 4 TB of data using Backblaze’s B2 system!

I think part of the problem has been that whenever I looked at their pricing in the past, I always equated it to backing up my entire data collection – including what’s now 60+ TB of TV shows and movies for Plex – which in turn ends up being something like $300/month and is completely unreasonable for a simple backup strategy!

Yet after now having endured a couple of hard drive failures across my collection, I’m starting to realize that there are certainly subsets of my data that are easier to replace than others. And so instead of B2 being this out of reach backup strategy for all of my data, it suddenly became a new opportunity to go from 400 GB backed up with CrashPlan to nearly 4 TB backed up with Backblaze for about the same monthly cost.

😯

Maybe I’ll do a separate post that’s a little more technical when I finally pull the plug … CrashPlan renews again on 10/10, so I’ve got a couple of weeks to test the waters to make sure I’m truly happy with Backblaze before I cancel one account and fully commit to the other. But so far, I’m pretty satisfied.

I found this free, open source software called Duplicati to manage the backups themselves, and it was super easy to install on both MacOS and CentOS. Within about 36 hours time this past weekend, I had 220 GB from three separate machines backed up to B2, which according to their calculator will run me about $1.10/month, so that’s cool! 🙂

I still need to do some testing on restores to see how that works, but it seems fairly straightforward via Duplicati.

I think in all of my years of using CrashPlan, I had to do one restore and it was 100 GB of music when a drive failed in my server. Their client made it just about seamless, so here’s to hoping for a similar experience with the new guard as well…

Mini-Me Mario Kart

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Today ended up turning into kind of a disappointing day, so instead of writing about that I thought I’d share something a little more fun…

The last couple of nights I’ve been playing Mario Kart 8 on the Wii U with David & Christopher to entertain them while Matthew has his therapy, and they’re not quite there yet, but it’s still surprisingly fun!

I’ve found that I have to take all of the controllers while we’re getting the game setup because otherwise they’ll push random buttons and back us out of whatever I just finished doing, and occasionally both of them will still get caught up with pressing the Home button that interrupts the game when they start getting bored.

But they really enjoy choosing characters because they get to pick whoever they want – even if they both end up wanting the same one, which is super helpful! Christopher has been playing Mario a lot, though he switched to Princess Peach (and knew her by name?!), while David primarily enjoys being “the monster” (Bowser) and thinks it’s hilarious to see such a huge character riding a motorcycle with a parachute that looks like himself!

I think one place where this game has really shined – on both the Wii and the Wii U – is that it looks beautiful with tons of detail in the background, so when I noticed on multiple occasions as we raced one of the beach tracks that they weren’t actually going anywhere and asked if everything was ok, I got the response, “We’re watching the fish swim by!” which was pretty cool to hear how amused they were by something as simple as the background art!

Truth be told, neither of them ends up getting very far around the track, and when Christopher finally complete a few laps the other night it was because he kept getting “rockets” (Bullet Bill items) to move him ahead, but for 15-20 minutes at a time they seem to really enjoy it, and I can get them to get along by choosing which tracks we’re going to do together, and overall they’re relatively quiet which is about the best that I’ve come to expect for a house with three boys and an obnoxious dog. 😉

I need to go back through my collection to see what others we could branch out into next.

What would you tell your past self???

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I had kind of an interesting dream last night…

I had met up with my scout troop in the middle of an outing, and randomly I asked them how they fared enduring the hurricane! This was somewhat shocking to them because as we talked, we quickly came to realize that the terrible storm that I was asking about … hadn’t actually happened yet.

I woke up shortly after that, so I didn’t really get to see how this new knowledge of the future would actually play out, but it got me thinking while I was laying there trying to fall back asleep – if I was able to tell myself something at a specific point in my past, what would I say?

“I know that you feel broken and alone and hopeless right now, and I’d be lying if I said that you weren’t going to feel this way for a while, but eventually it will pass and you’ll meet someone who completes you in ways that you can’t even fathom right now, and everything is going to be ok.”

“I know that having kids is the last thing on your mind right now, but someday you’re going to be a Dad. It’s going to be a very hard road to get there and you’re going to spend a lot of money and relationships with the people around you will change, but everything is going to be ok.”

“I know that it doesn’t seem like a big deal to postpone moving across the country for just one more year, but there’s so much more out there for you than this little town has to offer and you really need to spread your wings and explore and be around a diverse populace. Take the leap – everything is going to be ok.”

I found it intriguing that regardless of the scenario that I considered, I didn’t really have much in terms of new advice to tell myself for the past. The best that I could do was offer that hint of reassurance that despite how terrible struggles like heartbreak and infertility and moving away from home seemed at the time, somehow in hindsight everything had its way of working out ok.

One of my favorite quotes along these lines right now goes something like this…

“Never forget that so far you’ve survived 100% of the worst days of your life that you’ve ever had.”

It’s still hard to think about in the moment, though, so maybe we need to get to work on figuring out time travel just the same. 😉

How to Grow a Virtual Disk… (the long way)

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So to any sysadmins who do this kind of stuff on a daily basis, this is going to seem way obvious, but for somebody who doesn’t and has been struggling with this literally for months … let’s just say I’m pretty happy to finally have figured this out!

Also, this post is mostly for documentation’s sake so that I have a place to look back to when I need to do it again sometime many moons into the future…

It’s hard to believe that it’s been over a year already since I migrated my Plex server off of my old desktop hardware over to a proper rackmount server. Or at least Plex itself migrated, while the bevy of hard drives that 50+ TB of media lives on still resides in that aged and ever-waning PC.

Anyways, last June when I made the big leap to server-grade hardware, I only had a single hard drive to run VMs from for the new machine. For simplicity’s sake, I set it up as a RAID 0, single disk array, with the understanding that I could “easily” add more disks a few months later and re-configure that array into a more resilient RAID 5.

In fact, according to Amazon I did buy two more drives to use for said purpose in September 2018.

And just yesterday I finally got them working!

You see, it was probably too easy for me to setup that initial RAID 0 array via the new server’s BIOS. At the time, it seemed simple enough to add more drives to the pool and then reconfigure the array itself.

But one thing I’ve learned somewhat painfully since I first set this server up is that everything is more picky than that. Versions have to line up with the hardware, and older versions lack features supported by newer versions, even while they’re all being supported by the companies in parallel. This isn’t really news to me, but it’s certainly something that I never had to scrutinize to this extent.

With my old desktop server…

  1. Connect new hard drive.
  2. Find it in the CentOS Disks GUI, quick format it, and mount it.

With my new server…

  1. Connect new hard drive.
  2. Try to add it to my RAID pool via the RAID controller, but you can’t.
  3. Try to add it via ESXi, but you can’t.
  4. Try to connect via Dell OpenManage, but I didn’t install the server-side software in ESXi right because Dell’s support page for this server only goes up to ESXi 6.0 even though I’m running 6.5 and then I finally find the right software on a support doc found via Google.
  5. Try to connect via Dell OpenManage, but they only make a Windows client so I have to find a laptop to do that.
  6. Try to connect via Dell OpenManage, but the server doesn’t have a certificate and the login failure doesn’t mention that this is a big deal, so you just guess until you see a checkbox mentioning ignoring that and finally it works!
  7. Add new disks to RAID pool and reconfigure from RAID 0 to RAID 5 … and wait a very long time.
  8. Worry that I didn’t make backups of my VMs because I couldn’t figure out how to do it precisely the entire time.
  9. Try to expand virtual disk via ESXi now that the extra space is available, but it still doesn’t see it.
  10. Confirm via Dell OpenManage that the reconfigure is definitely done now and showing the extra space as available.
  11. Wait until 1:30am when nobody is using Plex and just reboot the whole thing, just in case.
  12. Try to expand virtual disk via ESXi, and now it sees it!
  13. Allocate additional space to new VM and reboot that VM, but it does nothing.
  14. Spend an hour Googling for instructions about how to allocate the new space inside of the guest OS until I finally found this random support post that ends up working not unlike magic!
  15. Verify that the new disk space is finally ready to use in the VM, and then debate whether it’s going to be enough or if I should’ve bought yet another disk just in case…

I mean, looking back logically it does make sense – first add the physical drives, then add them to the RAID pool, then rebuild the RAID array, then add new space to the Virtual Disk, then allocate the new space to a specific VM, then update the VM to recognize its new resources … maybe I was just hoping it would be slightly more seamless, even if only in parts! 😛

If anything, I guess it should be a tad easier the next time around, and now that I’ve gotten the bugs worked out of OpenManage, that alone is one less headache to worry about.

That said, I don’t want to rely on my work laptop for managing this server (and others down the road) indefinitely, so it also means I need to put together some sort of Windows box to sit in the corner and collect dust until it’s needed once in a blue moon…

Still, my Plex environment … minus the media itself … now lives on a cushy, new RAID 5 array that could sustain a single disk failure without missing a beat, plus I’ve got some extra cushion for downloading new stuff to boot.

Not too shabby for only ten months worth of work!

FML – Gardening Edition

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Have I mentioned that I hate working on my yard???

So we got a letter or two from our HOA earlier this year about the garden in front of our house being unkempt, and so like any other parent of three working two jobs with barely any free time to catch my breath, I put it off as long as humanly possible until I finally got that last letter which basically says, “Come on, buddy – you don’t want to know what happens next if you keep ignoring us…”

And so back in March or April or something, I busted my butt sweating it out in temperatures that were only a fraction of the fiery ones we’re seeing now. I probably raked up three or four bags of leaves and acorns and old mulch (?) from that stupid garden, only to then spend another sweaty afternoon spreading ten or so bags of mulch across the reasonably barren garden that I’m forced to keep on my tiny, suburban plot.

It sucked, but once it was behind me I didn’t think much of it until a couple of weeks ago when I got not one, but two copies of the same letter from the HOA’s attorney!

WHA???

This pissed me off because as far as I knew, we were done back in April when I spent more physical activity than I put in all year long slaving away in that garden, yet here was the same complaint as before – only now with the added fun of legal damages, should the HOA choose to either have someone do the work for me (I wish!) or just take me to court for further scolding and to threaten to put a lien on my house over some fucking weeds in the fucking garden.

You see, the sneaky thing about weeds is that they’re plants, so even when you do pull them, they have a tendency to just grow right back!

So to speed this story along so that I can go to bed, I’ve been fighting with this stupid garden some more in whatever hours I can find, which are pretty limited between jobs and kids and the heat and the rain and nighttime. I actually went back out tonight because it had just been too damn hot when I tried earlier, and I thought I was making some progress as I was digging a whole for one of the miscellaneous shrubberies to go into when after fighting with a root for far too long, I took a closer inspection in said dark and instead came to find out…

I CUT THE SPRINKLER LINE WITH MY SHOVEL.

Tomorrow I have a call with this lawyer to answer the questions I have about this boilerplate legal threat that they sent on behalf of my HOA.

I really hope that he’s nice. Or at least that he knows a thing or two about how to repair a broken sprinkler pipe.

An Emotional Day

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I know that I haven’t really blogged in a while, but yesterday was kind of crazy in a number of unexpected ways that really shook me, so I thought I’d take a minute to get a few things out of my head and off into the world…

The Ever-Rising Cost of Magic
First and foremost, yesterday Disney raised their prices for annual passes at Disney World. Again. Like clockwork.

This is after another 10% raise in the fall, so in less than 12 months the cost of our passes is going up 25%.

And that, coupled with the fact that this fall David and Matthew will turn three and also need passes, has been really concerned and sad that I’m not sure if we can afford to go to Disney World anymore. 

This is a subject that I’ve written about before, ironically from a previous rate hike that we were able to endure, however our financial situation has gotten tighter with autism therapies for two of the kids and just rising costs of everything, and where I stand right now, it just seems financially irresponsible to spend $5,000/year on theme park tickets when we’ve got so many other bills stacking up. Even with a monthly payment plan, that’s over $400/month … which is basically like a car payment!

And of course, that doesn’t even cover everything once we get in the door – snacks are more expensive, meals for five are more expensive than meals were for two … Disney becomes a much different world when you transition from Dual Income, No Kids to 1.3 Income, Several Kids!

It breaks my heart, and also somewhat enrages me, to see Disney making billions in profit off of their family theme parks each year while they continue to make it more difficult for families to enjoy them. And yet being so overcrowded, they’re actually hoping some guests like me will back off and go less to ease up on crowds for everyone else!

In part, this is a sliver of a much bigger issue as we come to terms with how expensive it is to raise kids with special needs, but for right now the whole thing just makes me really, really sad.

The Head Dickhead Comes to Town
This one is funny because he wasn’t even in my town, but I kind of look at Orlando as a second hometown and I love how socially progressive they are over there … so it was surprisingly bothering to know that Trump was in Orlando last night, spewing his lies and disgusting rhetoric and getting his base all riled up with absolute nonsense.

As I looked at the coverage from the Orlando Sentinel, I think a big part of what bothered me about it was seeing all of those people en masse who are willing to look past all of the terrible things he’s done to our country in favor of a more crude reality with occasionally better financial performance. For some.

It’s like seeing the country still struggling with things like race and gender and sexual identity, only to elect the guy who spent three years accusing the black president of being a Muslim, and now his last three years trying to ban Muslims, and continuing to make light of sexual assault, and moving the needle backwards in terms of LGBTQ acceptance … it’s hard enough seeing the guy at the top preaching so much hatred and bigotry, but to then pan back and see all of his followers who still agree with those toxic views.

I already have concerns that we might see this douche elected to another term, so to see his people rallying and cheering their own hatred for anyone different than themselves on just makes my skin crawl.

Artistic Beauty
At around 1:30am, after all of that, I was reminded of this new video on The Try Guys channel that I wanted to watch about Try Guy Eugene Lee Yang coming out to the world…

I’ll be completely honest that I felt like there was a lot that went over my head the first time that I watched it, but I knew that it was something special so I wanted to know more. And this behind the scenes video that they did really brought things into focus, both in showing more of the passion behind the project itself as well as helping to spell out the artistic vision for each of the scenes to really show the growth, and the pain, and the beauty in the process of coming out as a queer person.

At one point, someone is quoted as saying that it’s more of an ongoing process than an event, which makes a lot of sense and left me feeling even more sympathetic for the ordeal.

Later I watched a video of a gay man reacting to Eugene’s video – in tears most of the time – and it hit home the gravity of why the video has been so well received after only a few days.

This year I’ve found myself more tuned in to Pride Month than I have in the past, and I think a lot of it is out of an unspoken obligation to stand on the right side of this divide in this moment in time. I don’t necessary know how to do more, but I feel like I need to do something because I’m absolutely repulsed by how the LGBTQ community is looked down on by people, and the whole “straight pride” counter movement, and how we still have so many people around us who consider LGBTQ folks to be lesser people than they are.

And a lot of them don’t even realize it.

Comments like “I’m fine with the gays, but they don’t need to rub it in our faces…” and beliefs that equal rights for LGBTQ means more rights than they have themselves. We have elected officials who openly campaign on the ideals of religious freedoms that almost always mean undermining the rights of this group to exist in the community. They make themselves the victims because they’re afraid of people who are different from them … and I just don’t have any tolerance for that in my life anymore.

I think that’s a big part about why I was so offended by Trump’s rally because it’s like getting together tens of thousands of these terrible people who think that they’re incredible patriots for standing with the president, yet the disregard that they have for their fellow Americans is anything but patriotic.

Anyways, watching Eugene’s amazing video was breathtaking and inspiring and beautiful, and it also served as a reminder that we still have a long ways to go.

Which at the moment is exhausting.

Dream Journal : Passholder Kerfuffle

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Last night I dreamed that I was trying to renew my Disney World Annual Pass, but the girl at the counter couldn’t figure out how to ring it up and thought that I was making up the name of what I wanted and was generally just being a pest.

After four or five different cast members tried to help, with the line growing larger and larger behind us … consisting mostly of strollers, a manager wanted us to just charge it to our room to get the transaction over with.

Which wouldn’t work because I explained that I wanted monthly payments and I wasn’t planning on staying at the resort for the next 12 months… 😛

We finally gave up and walked away, shortly thereafter realizing that we’d left one of the kids sleeping in his stroller under the Tree of Life at the Animal Kingdom and had to go find him!

So how was your February?

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I feel like this month went by really fast.

And I’m honestly not sure how much I can say that I actually got accomplished, but for what it’s worth, the last handful of days have felt a little less stressful.

Not significantly less, but maybe from an 8 down to a 6? I’ll take it.

I’m looking forward to a couple of big things coming up in March, and also hoping that they don’t kick my stress level back up into overdrive! I already started making some changes in my diet, and I’ve been getting to bed a little earlier than usual, so my real goal is to continue with that stuff while also getting a bit more work done than I did for February.

Plus, March is Christopher’s birthday month, and we’re working on throwing him a monorail birthday, so I think that’s going to be super fun to plan for the end of the month!

It’s really weird – parts of my life are still running fast and others have slowed down … trying to make some sense of it and if anything, shift more parts into that slow column as we move forward. I think it’s gotten to the point where I’ve been living this high stress life for so long that now it feels bizarre when I’m idle. To that extent, I’m trying to rely on my to-do list more and keep it to a limited number of things each day so that I have realistic goals to shoot for.

I could sit here and psychoanalyze it ’til the cows come home … in February money wasn’t as tight thanks to our tax refund, I’ve spent more time doing fun stuff, I even did a little physical activity earlier this week raking leaves … but at the end of the day I just want to try to find a better balance where I can say I did some good work, I got some good family time in, I took care of myself, and I did some stuff just because I enjoy it.

I need to go find me some tea so I can wrap up this last day of February and get to work at making March great…