Fires in Ferguson and Questions About Racism

Anyone who insists that racism no longer exists in America need only look out their window today, whether you see predominantly white people in your sheltered, non-diverse community or the smoldering ruins of a people who feel so desperately helpless that they can only resort to violence and destruction as an outlet for the injustices that they feel within their own community.

Of course nobody condones looting and rioting, but it’s crucially important that we don’t look at these acts and merely write them off as those of violent criminals, but instead what needs to be taken from the imagery we’re seeing out of Ferguson is an example of a situation escalating to the point where words are no longer valid in the discussion, which is a very dangerous place to descend into and not out of fear of mere death or dismemberment.

They tried words, and nobody listened. Now things are getting worse.

And really, what’s expected isn’t an unusually reasonable demand – justice for a young, unarmed man who was shot and killed by a police officer, yet it turned out that the deck was so stacked against him that the prosecutor didn’t even deem it worthy of a trial in a court of law. Instead, a grand jury decided that there was nothing to charge the officer with and that he acted within his rights as a law enforcement official, and there in lies the rub because for an organization tasked with the duties to serve and to protect a community at large to not even question the death of an unarmed man as excessive use of force drafts a pretty clear dialog as to why the black community feels that it’s them against the police, not being protected by the police.

People protest to make their voices heard; they turn to rioting and violence when they go unheard to the point where collectively they feel as if they don’t even matter. What we’re seeing in these pictures aren’t just people who are “really mad” about the verdict – instead it’s a picture of desperation in a society so hopelessly stacked against them that one of their own being killed by the people who are supposed to protect them doesn’t even warrant a trial.

The images we’re seeing out of Ferguson are both terrifying and sad, but in a society where many want to insist that racism no longer exists in America, how else are those on the other side of the coin supposed to get anybody’s attention?

It’s easy to label someone who torches a convenience store as a lawless thug.

It’s more difficult to consider the question of what actually leads someone to do that sort of thing in the first place.

It’s no surprise that nobody who isn’t or hasn’t been a victim of racism wants to talk about it these days. It’s one of those things that we read about in the history books and like to shrug off as a horrible atrocity that our ancestors were very much on the wrong side of, but we’re better than that so there’s no way that racism would still be alive and thriving in America today. But it really wasn’t all that long ago when you consider that the USA is a little over 200 years old and for more than half of that, slavery was a real thing that happened within our borders.

Comedian Louis CK has a good joke that puts it into context:

“Every year, white people add another hundred years to how long ago slavery happened – I was talking to a highly educated guy who said that slavery was 400 years ago, and it very wasn’t! It was 140 years ago – that’s two seventy year-old ladies living and dying back to back … that’s how recently you could own a guy.”

So today in 2014, slavery has existed in our history longer than it hasn’t, and that’s why I think that it’s really ingenuous for us to just think that racism couldn’t possibly still be a real thing around us today when we have elderly black people right now who can remember a time when they weren’t allowed to do things that white people could do. And additionally, I frankly think that we’re going to keep seeing the root of that bubbling out in modern society because it serves as a spark to highlight the inequalities that exist today for their culture.

Sure, maybe slavery itself has come and gone, but things like racial profiling and what roles black people take in our society still have a profound impact on perception of a single class of people. And you would think that people like President Obama as the first black president and Oprah as the richest woman on the planet would serve to inspire, but really, when you’re in the trenches watching kids get shot by their protectors having to fend for yourself, it doesn’t really matter who the shining faces above the clouds are.

Violence is a terrible thing, but it gets people’s attention – maybe it’s time that we started talking about racism like it’s still a real thing and not some fictional excuse that black people dig up from the past to justify wanting to act like thugs. Because dare I say, people don’t protest because they want to … they don’t riot and throw rocks and burn down buildings because they want to … they do these things because they feel like they have to.

Let’s figure out why they feel this way so that we can change it.

This should be fun!!!

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So Santa Claus decided to visit our house a little early this year!

I had mentioned a while back that I was strongly leaning towards picking up a Wii U – Mario Kart 8 pretty much sealed the deal on that one. And then old faithful started acting up, first randomly turning off after you turned it on until it had a chance to warm up and finally culminating with a debilitating POP that led us to unplugging it from the wall out of fear of burning our entire house down… 😛

Well, all of this culminated in a bit of a shopping spree at Best Buy tonight where, in addition to ordering a replacement TV to be delivered just before Thanksgiving, we also pretty much cleared out the aisles of damn near every Wii U game and accessory that they had! We actually did the same thing years ago when we got our original Wii – it had come out a couple of years prior, so we finally ended up getting one with some of our wedding money, nearly filling a shopping cart with games and controllers to catch up on what we’d been missing for the past couple of years!

Anyways, tonight we’ve been playing around with it on the TV in our bedroom because as much as a part of me actually considered waiting three days to see it all for the first time on our brand new TV, the sane part of me said, “What are you, nuts?! Nobody buys a new game console and then lets it sit in the box for three days!!!”

Initial reactions:

  • Mario Kart 8 looks beautiful – the graphics are simply amazing and even from what little I’ve played so far, I love what they’ve done to add new dimension to the tracks. The tracks going up into the air are pretty wild!
  • Super Mario 3D World is decent … except for the damn cats, which seem to plague just about every level. I’ve always liked the Mario Galaxy perspective and allowing two players that can’t interfere with each other as they play is nice. But those damn cats…
  • Hyrule Warriors is unexpectedly my favorite so far – it’s an interesting twist on a Zelda game that’s already managed to suck me in, and it makes me want to find the time to revisit the rest of the series, too.
  • Wii U Sports Club is, well, troubling. Several of the games are basically Wii Sports +1, so it seems silly to buy it again. The worst, however, is golf because the whole put the Wii U Gamepad on the floor – while it’s a neat effect – is also a ridiculous notion for anyone who has anything other than adults in the house! Seriously, the dog nearly stepped on the thing like a dozen different times in the twenty minutes we were playing.
  • New Super Mario Bros U … the verdict is still out on this one.

Good grief – it’s already 3AM and I have absolutely no desire to go to bed at this point! 😛

Three (+1) Positive Things for the Week of 11/23

Home Entertainment Shopping Spree!
Commencing in only a few hours, it looks like we’re actually going to do the bulk of our Black Friday shopping today because Best Buy actually has the new TV that we’re buying on sale all week, and because we’re financing everything, it seems as good a time as any to to a bit of other splurging at the same time as well! So we’re basically buying all of the new games that we’ll get for the next year … now!

Christmas Light Overhaul Extravaganza
Also on the renovation list this year is our Christmas light display because despite how much I love decorating, we didn’t even put anything up last year and a big part of it was because the lights we have are a total mess. In fact, after going dark last season I kind of committed to doing it right again this year, knowing that it was going to involve scrapping the bulk of what we already have and starting over with a new design for the entire house.

Which is fine, albeit expensive! Still, I never really decorated our last rental because I didn’t have a ladder tall enough, so our old lights were really focused around a house that we haven’t lived in for several years now … it’s time for a change!

Backin’ Up, Backin’ Up, Backin’ Up, Backin’ Up…
So an interim step to this post from the other day that I actually was able to complete was throwing at least a partial backup of files onto CrashPlan, which makes me feel a little safer that at least my photos from all across the years are now a little safer in the event I lose a hard drive like I’ve already had happen several times before! It cost me about $75 for an annual subscription and the files took about a day and a half to upload … for now it was mostly just writing and photos, but where I am in life now makes $75 to protect that kind of stuff a no-brainer.

Kind of looking forward to my next steps because I still have plenty of organization to handle, plus I’m curious to see just how Unlimited they really are if I opt to try uploading my DVD collection to them eventually as well, but I guess for now it’s just comforting knowing that I finally got around to backing up the tens of thousands of photos that I’ve been saying I really need to backup for years now… 😉

Memory Lane Photo Posts
I had a lot of fun with this little series. I was feeling particularly nostalgic that night and I can see myself doing some more of them in the future as I come across worthwhile photos. 😀

Playing Computers

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It’s kind of been a long time since I’ve played with computers like I used to back in the day.

The other day between writing this post and thinking about upgrading some random stuffs, I started tinkering with the old hardware that I’ve had stacked in the spare bedroom since we moved here two years ago. On the downside, it didn’t take long to remember the issues I was having previously because one of the two still won’t output any video at all, but on the upside, I also just so happened to have a junk laptop that my sister-in-law had asked me to fix before she just gave up and bought a new one instead, so I ended up reformatting that one and was able to get a copy of linux (CentOS) running on it to play around with in fairly short order.

The goal with this one is to take another stab at building a media server because I’m not really happy with what I can do with Apple TV and I’ve currently got three boxes of DVDs also sitting in the room next door that aren’t really doing anybody any good! Nobody wants to sift through boxes of movies just to find something to watch and we simply don’t have the room to have shelves upon shelves of DVDs anymore, so right now I’ve been playing around with Plex to see if I can get the thing to work even just a little on that old laptop there before moving to something bigger…

In a way it’s kind of been therapeutic to dive back into circuit boards and jumpers and ribbon cables, even though it’s incredibly frustrating and I’m quickly making a pile of stuff that can definitely get recycled for good this time! Sometimes I need to just step back and take a break from pretty much everything in life and despite all of the other work that I’m not getting done as a result, it’s been fun to poke around inside of these things and hopefully by the time all is said and done, maybe I’ll even have a swell, new way to watch all of my old movies by the time this fantastic, new TV of ours arrives in the next couple of weeks! 😉

The Old Apartment, Part 2

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  • The Cleanliness: Taken roughly six months after the last photo was taken, I think this is probably the cleanest that you would’ve ever seen my apartment. Circa spring 2005, I’m pretty sure I was getting ready to go on a trip or something – no idea how it got this clean, but I assure you it didn’t last.
  • Snoopy Blanket on the Couch: My god, I’ve had that thing forever and I love it so much. It hardly has any warming properties left to it – my Mom had stitched it up and stuffed some filling in it before sending it down to me, but it’s a bundle of childhood and probably my favorite blanket ever. Sadly, in 2014 it remains folded on a shelf in the closet because Cleo would just tear it to shreds…
  • Sprint Phone on the Counter: LOL – that was my first phone when data kind of started being an option with phones, although it still totally sucked. I think I could post MoBlog photos and e-mail posts to LiveJournal, and that was about it!
  • Patio Furniture: I got that FOR FREE up in Michigan – the warehouse where I worked rented some space out to a furniture store and they would constantly leave people’s old furniture that they had picked up by our dumpster, so when I saw this almost brand new table & chair set, I threw it in one of the work vans and drove it home after hours! It’s kind of sad because it started out as really nice furniture, but I kept it outside and the weather just ruined it over time. Sara even helped me cover it in plastic at my next apartment to give the table another year or two, but the chairs were pretty gross by the time I finally got rid of them.
  • Neon Dolphin???: No clue where I got that thing – maybe Walmart or something? I was kind of in a dolphin kick at the time, so they went into a lot of my decorating … you can also see a great white shark statuette on the other side of the door frame where the stairs were.
  • TINY OFFICE!!!: If my office in my Mom’s basement was big enough for me to fit a couch in comfortably, this thing was basically the size of a closet! There was almost no room on the floor around my chair and I had bookcases and crap piled everywhere, but for my first two years in Florida, that tiny room was where I spent an exceeding amount of my time in front of the computer!
  • Our Loser Friends, The Poster: I had those printed up after we finished the series and all three of us signed them so we each had one. Unfortunately, I didn’t take care of mine nearly as well as I did the signed money poster and it’s about ready to get thrown out because the ink is bleeding, but it was still a neat memory to carry around for a while. The two photos below the poster are ones I took in Michigan during the few months before I left – one is a waterfall in the Upper Peninsula, the other is a sand painting at the bottom of the campfire bowl done by the camping group I was a part of in scouts.
  • New Networking Stuffs: Apparently I had just bought a new router from Best Buy, too? I don’t know – I can’t remember everything… 😛

Also noteworthy:

  • I really loved that couch! The couch that you see there in the photo was totally my bachelor couch – I paid maybe $300 for it when I first got my apartment and within two years time the cushions were already starting to get a little gross after becoming coated with my hair gel over time, but I can’t tell you how many nights playing video games in that place I spent kicked back on that couch with no place better to be and no girlfriend to be there with anyways! Just like the TV, it lasted quite a long time until it got demoted to being an outdoor couch at our last house and from there, the weather and a hungry puppy got the best of it after many, many comfortable (to me) years.
  • I remember being particularly proud of the pillows that I found to match with that couch, too! 😀

Scott’s 21st Birthday

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  • The Feast!: So yeah, my Mom kind of went all out for my 21st birthday … I came home to find 21 pink plastic flamingos decorating the front lawn, and then this happened!
  • The Lobster: I cooked it myself – ordered his own gruesome, boiling demise – which was and still is sickly kind of amusing.
  • Corona: And I was sort of a beer drinker back then, although it was mostly because I felt like I was supposed to at the time. I think I picked Corona just because it seemed tropical and although I had the maps up on my walls, this was still several years before I would actually pack up and move away to Florida, so it was very much still a pipe dream at that point.
  • Birthday Comix: It’s kind of hard to make out, but on the keyboard towards the left you can see one of the very first comics that my sister and I did together years before Ink, Paint & Tears… actually came to be. It was a little four-part series we did for Just Laugh called Our Loser Friends – my friend Matt and I who ran the site wrote the series as Two Guys from Nowhere and Lori did the artwork under Loriginal Comix.
  • Jam Session: I have no idea why there is not one, but two boomboxes in this photo. I guess my Mom just throws that kind of party! :mrgreen:

Bonus Photo…

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The Original Office

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  • More Monkey!: Same poster as seen before moved with me into my new office, which essentially consisted of me crudely cutting a hole in the wall and knocking out the stud in the middle so that I could get from the room where my bed was into this new office space that I had annexed for myself. By this point I had pretty much taken over the entire basement of the house, turning it into sort of my own makeshift apartment during my college years before I left.
  • On the Printer: The cover to my final project for college – a journal written after we took a week-long class trip down to the Everglades to study nature and ecology and all that jazz! I ended up posting the thing online and also printing out a few copies for close friends – you can find it here for the time being, in all of its 2002 Scott’s Sense of Humor glory!
  • Felt Figment!: I actually have that laying around here somewhere, too, because I grabbed it the last time we were up to visit – I think I got that my very first trip to Disney World, which would’ve been like 1982??? I keep saying that I want to properly frame it, but then I never do.
  • Sea Life, Framed: I want to say that maybe that was a gift from my Dad at some point? All it is is a big sheet of fabric wrapped around a wood frame, but it was BIG and I needed something to fill space on the wall, so there you go!

Also noteworthy:

  • I seriously feel cold just looking at that photo! Living in the basement meant that it was cool in the spring and summer, and absolutely freezing anytime else…  😕

My Basement Lair…

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  • Everywhere: I’d like to say that the reason the room is so messy was because I was getting ready to move to Florida in this picture, but its metadata marks this photo as circa December 2001 and I didn’t move until 2003… 😯
  • The Tie Dye: very much played the part of the stoner in high school and then on through college … what you can’t see behind me is an entire wall covered in trippy black light posters and a couple of tie dyed wall hangings that pretty much covered the walls completely. Hey, it was an unfinished basement – what do you want from me?!
  • The Bead Door: OMG, was this thing such a pain in the ass! Just ask anyone who ever caught a shoe on one coming in and brought beads crashing down all around them! There are a couple of dozen strings hanging, they were all done by hand, and the difference between mine and the ones you could buy at any head shop? The professionally made ones are tied off at each bead so you can cut them, and also to prevent said crashing to the floor whenever company comes over…
    • Standard rule was that whoever broke it was the one stuck picking up all of the beads.
  • Christmas Lights: I was also, like, really big into decorating my Mom’s house for Christmas. It was one of the few times I didn’t mind going out in the cold, even though snow + climbing on the roof = terrifying beyond belief.
  • The Just Laugh Monkey: This is the same one as seen in this post, pre-signed and back when the magazine was still in active production. It was the summer before I moved down to here that I spent about $100 on postage to mail that thing around to all of our contributors for their autographs … maybe somehow I knew then that it wasn’t going last much longer.
  • The Expensive Music Equipment: Directly below my monkey is one of the reasons it took me so long to move … because I thought it would be a good idea to run up $4,000 worth of credit card debt for music stuff while I was still in high school! Worst part is, all of that crap now sits under a bunch of sheets in that same basement…  😐

The Old Apartment

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After stumbling across this old photo while I was working on backup stuff, I started noticing random details in it and thought that going through it might make for a fun, little blog series, so here we are! 🙂

  • On the TV: HBO’s Oz … I used to watch that show a lot, despite the constant shanking and man sex that apparently comes from life in prison without parole.
  • On the Table: Remember CD-Rs?! We used to save all of our digital media to these cheap, optical discs that were super easy to scratch and got really bad if you left them in the front seat of your car! It was a strange time.
  • On the Table: In the corner is my very first, and actually the only laptop that I’ve ever owned. I don’t remember exactly when it died, but it’s definitely in a recycle pile somewhere now.
  • On the Shelf: Nintendo games! Also, my Aerosmith CD collection and it looks like a bunch of TV series on DVD.
  • On the Speaker: I own an iron?!?!?! Actually, I think I still have that exact same iron. Fun Fact: I’ve never used it to iron clothes … I think it was out to try and get melted wax out of the carpet or something.
  • Fishtank in the Corner: I miss the days when I was responsible enough to keep a nice fish tank, but those days are gone.

Also noteworthy:

  • The TV (and the metadata on the image) dates this photo November 2004, meaning I had just gotten my brand new HD TV a couple of months prior! Although we technically still have it in our living room today, it’s been acting real funky lately and my wife mentioned she smelled smoke and burning coming from it, so a decade is probably the lifespan for that reliable, old rear projection TV.

The costs of cloud storage in 2014…

Despite being a lifelong computer geek, I’ve never really been very good about maintaining proper backups.

It’s always been something that was just off on the horizon – something that I was going to take care of soon, but not right now.

Thankfully I think I’ve only been bitten by this lack of preparation a couple of times … usually I’ve lucked out and been able to spin a hard drive up just long enough to pull data off after a crash, and I think I lost one drive a long time ago that was a repository for video files of TV shows and movies that got toasted and never recovered, but as far as I can remember, that’s about it.

That said, I know that I should do better and as I look towards upgrading to a new laptop here shortly in addition to just updating both of our phones, I’m trying to weigh my options as far as whose cloud all of this digital crap that we’ve accumulated should get stored in!

Just at a glance, we’ve got…

  • My Documents – 25 GB
  • Photos – 90 GB
  • Music – 85 GB
  • Video – 90 GB
  • Miscellaneous Other Stuff – 295 GB
  • iPhone / iPad data – 15 GB
  • Online Website Stuff – 5 GB

And granted, I think part of my problem in trying to devise a strategy for this all along is that I’ve always wanted one place to reliably backup all of this stuff, and a few years later now I’m looking back at it and thinking that maybe that isn’t really the right way to go anyways. Despite in total everything clocking in at barely over half a terabyte, now it’s all on different devices, and some of it I want to remain in sync on different devices, so more of a hybrid solution may very well be in order now that there are actually quite a few cloud storage options available.

The trouble is, picking which one! 😯

I’ve had a Dropbox account now for a couple of years, but I rarely use it because I didn’t want to install their app on some of the computers that I needed it on, and plus nowadays the storage capacity for a free account isn’t anywhere near what I need.

Google Drive is fine, though I’ve never used their app to really give it a proper workout. On the other hand, I’m quickly losing my faith in Google Docs because I kind of hate their word app and it’s by far the most important to me as a writer. Their spreadsheet app is ok, but I’m pretty experienced in Excel at this point and I can’t tell you the number of times I’ve hit a wall saying, “But I know that I can do that in Excel!!!”

Which brings me to Microsoft OneDrive, which I honestly hadn’t even thought about until I just realized this evening that 1 TB of storage comes with any subscription to Office 365, which I’m going to have to get for $99/year with the new MacBook Air that I’ve had my eye on.

And then there’s also iCloud, which we just recently upgraded on both of our phones (at the lowest $0.99/month/device plan) to allow them to continue backing up as we moved to bigger devices because we were both randomly getting out of space errors with the last phones that we had!

As a side note, I’ve also been looking at a subscription to Adobe Creative Cloud so that I can have Photoshop and Fireworks on the new computer, which comes with a free 20 GB of storage, but looking at the numbers above I don’t think that’s even worth thinking about at this point.

I guess at the moment I’m a little torn between OneDrive and iCloud – on one hand, OneDrive is essentially free with Office, whereas iCloud will run me another $10-20/month just for the laptop alone. And I think that’s what bugs me about iCloud is that ideally I’d like my wife’s phone and my own to share, but they still need their own accounts according to Apple despite now looking at $22/month just in cloud storage fees!

I think I still need to do some more research into this because from what I can tell, everything that iCloud can do, OneDrive can do, too, and if that’s the case, OneDrive will already be free for me!

The big takeaway that I’m looking for here is really simplicity and thoroughness – even though I’ll never write from my phone for the most part, the idea of having all of my Word docs available to browse anywhere I am is kind of appealing, just like it’d be nice if the photos I took from my phone could just magically sync to my PC instead of having to copy over the ones that I want to use in a blog post or whatever. And then there’s the whole media aspect of it – I know that I can’t have a couple hundred gigs stored on my phone at all times, but if all of my music and videos were in the cloud … even the stuff that I haven’t purchased from Apple! … that I could stream anywhere, be it traveling or whatnot, that would be a nice change from the messy file folders that I have today!!!

Granted, I know that I’m not going to solve all of these problems in one day. In fact, I don’t think I’m going to solve any of them until I’ve got my new laptop and I can install both of them and play around a bit with what they can do. From a cost perspective, obviously OneDrive would be ideal, and I think it might work with syncing phone photos if I install their iOS app like the website says (now if only my camera did the same thing!). If I could get OneDrive to handle documents, photos, and a simple cloud backup for media, that would be a good start … making them easily streamable to my phone or Sara’s iPad on the fly would be even better.

On top of all of this, I feel like I still need a good, solid local backup, too, which in the short term might be as simple as picking up a 4TB external hard drive for $150 to dump everything to as well as store some of the bulkier stuff (because my laptop will only have a 500 GB drive).

Ideally I eventually want to revisit my whole home server idea because in addition to shuttling files between phones and computers, I also want to see the media portion accessible via Smart TVs in the house … though that’s a taller order because I still need to sort out multiple sources (i.e. purchased from iTunes vs DVDs and Blu-Rays bought), co-mingling these all in one interface, and making them look pretty and easy to browse on the TV itself. At one point I thought that Apple TV might be a good front end for this, but now I’m not so sure. Additionally, I need a place where I can run scripted backups pulling down from my web server just to make me feel safer with a local backup on top of the network backups that they do today. All of these combined have been what’s steered me clear of a NAS box because I’m not sure how much actual functionality I could get from one aside from here are some drives for you to use.

Oh yeah, and I have to decide whether I still want a whole-computer backup for all of this crap as well, too, or if everything else listed above would be good enough!

Last year I paid for a subscription to CrashPlan on a Black Friday sale with the intent of finally backing up our photos, and a year later they’re asking me to renew and I never even installed the client software… 😛

Lots and lots of decisions, and I have a feeling that it’s going to end up being a phased approach simply because I can’t just go out and drop $1,000 on a new file server tomorrow like I’ve wanted to now for years! I want to avoid picking up lots of recurring fees because we already pay Verizon so much money just for connectivity at home and via mobile as it is … and yet, half a terabyte now more than ever, I’m starting to realize the value of the data we’ve collected over the years and just how much it would suck for any of it to randomly disappear due to a stupid disk crash again or something.

I’m sure this won’t be the last riveting post I write about the existing world of cloud storage – I’ll let you know what I come up with! 😀

(and good grief, I really need to come up with something to solve these problems this time…)