It didn’t really click with me when I found out on Saturday, but Sunday rolled around and now I just can’t shake it. It’s not too bad if I’m consciously doing something to keep my mind off of it, but I had to wait in line at the grocery store for like twenty minutes today and just about lost it.
I don’t know. I don’t know when it is. And next week is finals week.
And honestly, I don’t know if I could go. Everyone is saying it’s not my fault, and logically I know that, but I don’t know if I could be around his family without breaking down.
“The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. And what do you get at the end of it? A death. What’s that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you’re too young, you get a gold watch, then you got to work. You work forty years until you’re young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, get laid, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating in warm liquid . . . and you check out as a gleam.” — Apocryphal Quote
Not really.
This morning was weird…I woke up after a night of bad dreams and thought, “Today is the first day that I wake up and know that Michael is gone.”
I know what you mean…
It didn’t really click with me when I found out on Saturday, but Sunday rolled around and now I just can’t shake it. It’s not too bad if I’m consciously doing something to keep my mind off of it, but I had to wait in line at the grocery store for like twenty minutes today and just about lost it.
Are you coming down for the funeral?
I don’t know. I don’t know when it is. And next week is finals week.
And honestly, I don’t know if I could go. Everyone is saying it’s not my fault, and logically I know that, but I don’t know if I could be around his family without breaking down.
“The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. And what do you get at the end of it? A death. What’s that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you’re too young, you get a gold watch, then you got to work. You work forty years until you’re young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, get laid, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating in warm liquid . . . and you check out as a gleam.”
— Apocryphal Quote