It’s official – I now have a date for my upcoming kidney transplant!
Right now I feel all sorts of emotions, which I suppose I have the next month to do my best to sort out…
I’m nervous about the surgery because this is by far the most complicated and longest procedure I’ve ever had done.
I’m anxious about processing those fears and setting my kids’ expectations without scaring the shit out of them … or myself.
I’m grateful for the generosity of my donor for gifting me something that I could never possibly repay.
…not that it’s expected, but it’s still a massive concept to wrap my head around – the idea that this person is willing to give me a part of themselves in order to give me a better future with my family.
WOW.
If the tables were turned, I’d like to think that I would do the same, but I don’t know. There are plenty of people in my life who didn’t offer to donate and I can’t fault them for that at all because ultimately it’s an immensely personal choice that one can only make for themselves.
Like I said, lots of emotions swirling around my head right now, but that’s what time and reflection and therapy are for!
Only 14 more dialysis sessions to go…