Thin Post : Finding My Way Again…

It’s kind of scary to think that it’s been almost a month since I last blogged about this, and yet in a way I don’t really feel like I’ve made much positive change just yet.

I weighed in today and found that ultimately I ended up gaining 5 pounds in the month of June – not exactly the direction that I’ve been shooting for! Pretty disappointing when my goal was to have lost nearly double that after having worked at it for six months now. I’m hoping that because a lot of it was realistically put on in the last week, that maybe it’ll fall back off just as easily if I can turn things around this week, but even if it takes longer the truth is I just need to start trying a lot harder…

I’ve been trying to figure out some ways to reintroduce motivation for weight loss back into my daily routine – shooting for my rewards again, including more games, and even challenging myself a bit more with strength-type exercises … I only ever ended up getting about halfway through the 100 Push-Up Challenge before it fizzled out and I lost interest, so I want to figure out how to get myself back to being excited about beating those goals and pushing myself to new heights because that’s when I really found myself making headway and resisting the snacking because I had so much positive progress on my side!

I’ve also been reading back through some of my older blog entries as I worked to finish tagging stuff for the site and this one in particular really stood out to me. It’s something that I wrote over two years ago to describe exactly why I want to lose weight, and it’s extremely honest and personal, and a little embarrassing, and admittedly it made me a little sad to read it because though everything still certainly applies, in two years I don’t really feel as if I’ve done nearly enough to take care of this because I’m still struggling and only maybe one of the five things on that list has really been addressed.

I’m trying not to say this in a depressed way, but more in the vein of the fact that I need to do better. Now! It’s been two years since I first made that proclamation, but realistically I’ve been trying to slim up even a lot longer than that. Unless I want weight loss to just be one of these things that always plagues me throughout my entire life, I need to rededicate myself to making some hardcore changes so that another two years from now, I can look back on this post and think about it as the turning point to when I actually got my shit together instead of simply yet another rambling along my perpetual attempts at getting skinny.

I need to change, and even if I don’t exactly have all of the answers right now, I need to start trying a lot harder than I have been.

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